Friday, September 19, 2008

Never-ending nightmare

You've heard it before or have had the dream yourself. 
It's back-to-school time and you dream that you go to class without clothes on, miss your bus or can't find your classroom....
Well I'm going on 4 years of no school since graduating college in 2005. I shouldn't be having "school" dreams. But I continue to have this never-ending nightmare, like last night, where I'm back in college. It's my last semester, and I can't remember what classes I signed up for. It always begins with me realizing that I didn't print out my schedule, so I stand in the hallway not knowing the classes, times, or even where to go to print off a new schedule. 

So I panic. 

Eventually I get my schedule, but look at it and realize that I've missed a Literature class or Math class more than once. (They are always high school classes, though I'm in college.)

So I panic.

How many tests have I missed? How many assignments have I not completed? I go to class in a daze dreading the news that I will fail the class and ... not graduate. 

So I panic.

I think I have this dream when I'm stressed or starting to get sick. But deep down, I wasn't always the model student. I didn't like to study or do homework. It wasn't really until my last couple years of college that I really started enjoying school. I was finally studying things that I WANTED to. But those first two years were rough. And that time must still be fresh in my subconscious.

But then I wake up, and slowly realize that I did graduate. And it was just a dream...

1 comment:

Sung Sook said...

DUDE... I always have dreams like that. I've forgotten my schedule, my locker combination, I'm missing classes, or I can't find my car in the parking lot. I wonder what all these school dreams mean. I have a lot of friends who have them too.